je t'aime maman

As a teenager, there's always those time when I'm tempted to try new things, and explore the world especially when all my peers are doing it. But you know, choosing to follow my heart or mind are both not apart of the package in my case. I follow my mom because she knows best (and I don't have any other choices :P). But when she says no, I act all rebellious thinking that it'd change her mind. Haha no. 

When she says no = no. Period. The word negotiating hardly ever exists. 

But my mummy, despite how many times I've hurt her, made her angry, disobey her, and violated her trust, she'll always end up forgiving me and never fails to be there for me when I need someone. She's been there for me since day 1, without knowing the meaning of giving up. Throughout my 17 years of life, I may not have behaved and acted exactly upon what she taught me, but whatever good I do have in me, I learnt it from both, my mummy and daddy. 

She keeps us grounded and constantly reminds us to always prioritise Allah SWT, because we came from Him and what are we without the Almighty? No matter how smart we think we are or how good we are at something, there's always someone out there who's waaaaaayyyy  better.

Whatever happens, the first person I look for is my mummy. When I'm happy, I look for her. When I'm sad, I look for her. When I'm not feeling well, I look for her. When I need advice, I look for her. And when I see daddy: "Oh, hi daddy, where's mummy?" hehe, jokes. I love both my parents equally.

I remember back when I was in primary school, I used to cry "ma-meeee...ma-meeeee...ma-miii...." instead of the "waaaa...", "tsk..tsk.." or however a normal person would cry. That's how overly attached I am to my mummy, hehe.

Sometimes when I think of the fact that even all the money in this world will never be enough to repay all the deeds my mummy has done for me, it makes me so upset. The only thing she expects from me is for me to apply what they've taught me, be closer to God and work hard in whatever I do, which is more for my sake than hers. Insyaallah, with your prayers and support mummy, I will study hard and succeed so I can buy you all the Chanels and Louboutins in this world that you deserve <3

So here's to my fashion consultant, my chef, my therapist, my role model, my caretaker, my ultimate inspiration, my biggest fan, my superwoman, my best friend, my shopping partner, my personal photographer, my pillar of strength (and the list goes on), and most importantly my mummy.

Thank you for everything you've done for me, from giving birth to me to giving me your endless support, unconditional love, and just giving me that warm comfort of being in your presence. I'm sorry for all the pain I've caused you, and I hope you know that it kills me in the inside (even if I don't show it) when I (consciously or unconsciously) hurt you. 

I'll never run out of things to say when it comes to her, but I have to stop at one point, right?

With all that being said, I hope at this point, you realise how much I love you and that you mean more than the world to me. I love you mummy boo, happy mother's day <3

And not to forget, all the mothers out there who deserve nothing but the best. Happy mother's day! This one's for you.